“Just Finishing” No Longer an Option

The goal of my last half marathon and triathlon were just to finish. A worthy goal after pregnancy, but as my youngest son reaches his first birthday i no longer want to finish-i want to “perform”

I signed up for a last minute 10km run in a small community not far from home this past Sunday and it was so much fun. It was a first ever for this community to celebrate their centennial and it only had just over 200 runners. I knew i hadn’t prepared for this race and was tired, but i really though i could keep up with a front running pack-i even left my music home so i could listen to and push my body to its’ limits. I knew within the first 2km that i would, again, be near the back of the pack. My whole body just felt sluggish and my tummy did not feel well at all. I didn’t let this deter me from having fun during this run, in fact, it gave me a chance to think about where i want running to take me. Oh, and also to plan how to “accidentally” trip a girl running near me who’s Garmin kept playing some funky alarm every 30 seconds-so annoying!

Ahem, anyway…i realized that i need to fuel my body properly in order for it to perform it’s best. When i ran before the baby i was getting full nights of sleep, perhaps this let me off the hook from my less than stellar diet. Not this time. My lack of sleep and poor nutrition have let me feeling sick and headachy after any run longer than 10km-for me this is unacceptable. I want to run in the morning and feel energized when i get home, not need to crawl into bed with all the lights out.

My goal for summer is to make my body run faster. I know i can do this if i treat her right 🙂 I’ve begun to track my calories, not so i can lose weight and obsess over each calorie, but to make sure i am taking in enough (good) calories in order to let my body perform well and recover properly. I want to take my running to the next step where i can run farther and faster, but also feel great while i’m doing it and not just get through it.

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Cornwall Classic 5K

The Cornwall Classic run was yesterday, a great fundraiser for KidSport PEI, giving participants the option of a 5 or 10K run. I chose the 5K. My goal was to simply finish without having to stop and walk, and I’m so pumped to say I did it!

Roughly one year ago, I ran my first ever 5K race…my first ever 5K run…and I ran outside for the very first time ever…all on the same day. That race I finished at pretty much 30 minutes even and I didn’t stop to walk either. I did, however, wear my knee brace, and the course itself was relatively flat.

Fast-forward one year. I ran sans knee brace and chose a race that pretty much consisted of hills and had the last 1K of the race totally uphill. I finished on-the-clock at 30:34, but I did stop to check on a friend’s daughter when she fell and I slowed down at the end to allow my 3-year-old to finish the race with me, so I’m guess-timating my finish time to be around 29 minutes. Whatever, the real time, I’m super duper proud to have finished.

The first 2.5K was pretty easy. I had my husband and a good friend running with me and we spent a good part of that time chatting and catching up. I got to see some of the newer homes being built that I’ve never seen before, and the buzz of the crowd was pretty awesome.

This is us starting off (I’m in the middle with a pink/purple sweater on):

At the half-way point, I threw off my sweater (oh I forgot to mention, it was bloody cold out to start!) and got down to business. This is the mark where I usually let myself walk for 2-3 minutes. Not this time. And it went pretty well, too, until that last 1-1.5K where the hills just started to get to me. I did slow down, but I didn’t walk, and my co-runners were pretty awesome to keep me motivated (thanks Allan and Julie!).

Of course, there’s nothing like that feeling when you round a corner and see the crowd cheering you on. Oh wait, yes, there is something that beats that: seeing a very excited 3-year-old wondering if she could finish the race with me. I had told Kait to watch out for me and if there weren’t a lot of people around, she could run toward me and we’d finish together. The look of her face when I slowed down and told her to come on was amazing.

This is really what it’s all about:

I’m already thinking I’ll do that exact same race I ran last year again, which is in 2 weeks. Oh, and since I get to buy myself a snazzy new running skirt b/c I met my goal yesterday, I’ll have to think of a new goal for the next race.

Photo Credit: j.norman-bain

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Triathlon Recap

What an amazing experience my first triathlon was! It totally made up for the crapfest of the half marathon last weekend. I mean, i was pleased i finished the half and did run great for some of it, but it never felt like my race. I never felt in control of what was going on. The Vulcan Tinman Triathlon WAS MY RACE.

My day started very early at 5am because i had to be in Vulcan, AB by 7:30am and it takes 90 minutes to drive down there. This long drive allowed me to eat and have some time for good digestion. My stomach was feeling a bit off, but i knew i had enough medication with me and would take it when my time to start got closer. I listened to music and sang the whole way out at the top of my lungs-i even got a great parking spot once i got there. So right away i felt in control, calm and happy. There were minimal volunteers working, but it was better that way because everyone knew what was going on and the whole event worked like a well-oiled machine. I got my bike set up and my bag organized and off to the pool i went!

I was able to get into a lane early and off i went! I had a volunteer there who counted my laps for me so i was just able to concentrate on my swimming. Not only did she count, but cheered me on and talked to me when i took a second to catch my breath every few laps. I even had the lane to myself for awhile which was nice. 20 laps later i was running to transition-let me correct-i walked fast. I started running, but realized running in my bathing suit was not flattering 😉 My transition went smoothly and i jumped on my bike for a 16km ride. I made the mistake of not wearing my sweater. Now i’m not sure what the temperature was, but it was COLD. I could see my breath, but i was warm from the swim so i biked with just a short sleeve tech shirt.

My bike was uneventful. I managed to pass a few people-i think i went fast because i was so cold. My skin was red and covered with goosebumps, but i didn’t care because i was having so much darn fun! I will add here that many of racers were having just as much fun as i was-we were smiling at each other and yelling encouragement-what a wonderful vibe. I was looking forward to the run since i consider that my strongest part of the race. However, as soon i got off that bike i knew why triathlons were a challenge. My body was so stiff and my legs were tired from the bike. Everything hurt from the cold and i literally hobbled to get my bike to the rack and got ready for the run.

The run was not as smooth as i hoped it would be. My body never quite loosened up and i consider myself a better distance runner, but i was happy that my body continued to perform even though it was tired and cold. I can’t help but laugh now, but the run went past a cemetery and i really thought i would be nice to lay down and die there 🙂 I wasn’t in that much pain-just fatigued and ready to be done! I had decided to walk for a bit and an older woman caught up with me and encouraged me to start running again at the 4km mark. We took off and even managed to sprint the last 100 or so feet. I crossed the finish line and immediately went down on one knee was about to cry when i heard “You did it Mommy!”. My husband and two sons surprised me at the finish line and i was SO happy to see them. It was the first time i have ever had someone waiting for me and it felt amazing.

I was very happy with my times (which include transition from one event to another):

500 meter swim-16:23
16km bike-49:02
5km run-32:21

Total time-1:37:44

I felt as i just finished my half marathon last weekend-no feeling of ownership or success when i was done. In Vulcan i felt as if i was competing the entire time and pushed myself every second. My body felt great and up for the challenge-as did my mind. And that is what a great race should feel like!

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Race Recap

It’s finished! I didn’t get the time i was hoping for and my body hurt a lot after the race was done, but i crossed the finish line smiling and new i had accomplished something i will be proud of forever.

Even though it was my second time running this distance in a race, i felt more stress and pressure while training for the Centaur Subaru Half Marathon. Training while having two children to juggle with no babysitter, lack of sleep and tummy troubles definitely left me worrying about my ability to get myself to travel those 21.1 km.

Race day began very early and cold! A 7am start time meant a 5:30am wakeup to get myself ready and take public transit down the race-finding parking in that part of Calgary is tough-especially when there are 15,000 other people vying for the same spots. When i got there the lineup for the bathrooms was crazy so i figured i would wait until the race started and stop at some along the course thinking it would only take a minute or two-this was a big mistake. The race started out fine-loud music, pushing and shoving by some people. My biggest problem are those folks who plan to walk the race, but line up at the front of the pack in a three or four people wide, forcing everyone to dart around them or risk tripping on them.

I had a terrible start to the race and almost quit and went home within the first 4 km. I just couldn’t find my groove-i was upset about a personal issue, plus i had a very full bladder that was distracting me (sorry for the tmi, but there is more to come). The first bathrooms were not until the 3 km mark and the line was 15 people long. I guess i wasn’t the only one with the grand idea not to go before the race started. I asked a volunteer where the next ones were and found out it would be another 3 km and i knew i couldn’t wait that long. So in the line i waited for 15 minutes watching the race pass me by. I hit a low when i saw a woman with two canes walk by-i knew it would be hard to get with the race feeling back if i was with all the walkers.

So my turn came and off i went-feeling dejected and knowing the race time i wanted was already gone and i hadn’t even reached the 5 km mark. But, i went on and managed to get into a bit of a groove. And i’m really glad a did because i met up with a friend and ran with her for about 3 km. I did want to run a bit faster so we said our goodbyes at around the 11 km mark (with her blessing) and off i went feeling much better. Then i my feet started to hurt and i knew i had a big blister forming on each foot under the arch. I knew my socks weren’t the best choice for the race, but my favorite race socks went missing and i still haven’t found them. So here i was feeling better and wanting to run hard, but the blisters were very painful. I took a deep breath and went on-fast-i really rocked it for several km. I was just about 4.5 km short of the finish and was catching up to finish time of 2.5 hours-i had really wanted 2:15, but knew i couldn’t do it. I was almost there-then my stomach medicine conked out and it make running very difficult. I don’t want to get into gross details, but i saw all my hard work slipping away again because i was feeling so rotten and was hunting for bathrooms again. I found some, but it didn’t help-my race was over. I forced myself to keep going in spite of the extremely painful blisters and a stomach that felt like it was going to fall out at any second.

I heard it, then i saw it…the finish line…i was almost there! My knees were hurting by this point because they were compensating for me running differently because of my monster blisters but i pushed and smiled and completed my race in an abysmal time of 2:45. i was upset because my family didn’t come to see me finish and i admit i shed a few tears because of it as i limped home.

I’m feeling better now about the race and did manage to have some fun. I’m trying not to focus on everything that went wrong and reminding myself that i worked long and hard to get myself ready for this race and should be proud that i continued, and finished, even when the thought of quitting was much more appealing.

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Running Naked

Today I went for a run and I was naked.

A little perspective: clearly, I had clothes on (sorry to disappoint folks). What did I run without then? My knee brace.

Now, I’ve been running with my knee brace since . . . well, since I first decided to try running. I’ve been using it when exercising since my late teens. Dependent much? Maybe. I will say, the brace has been helpful for certain parts of my life and has allowed me to do some forms of exercise I might have done otherwise.

This year I have been pushing myself harder … in all aspects of my self. Physically, I have accomplished things I would not think I could in a previous life. So, no doubt I’ve been getting stronger. I’ve been noticing on recent runs that my good knee has been hurting. And not just routine stiffness, but those lightning bolts that make you stop running.

So today I thought I would try a little experiment and leave the brace off my quote unquote bad knee and see if that would help spread the love of the knees.

Did it work?

Well…today I ran 5k, or just about anyway (i don’t track…I work on estimates), my first of the year! I did allow for a 3 min walk at the 2.5k mark, but I’m cool with that (especially as that just so happens to fall at the start of a steep incline).

I did feel naked though. Here’s my deep dark secret: the brace has been my crutch. As long as I have worn the brace, I have been allowed to be sub-par. It’s okay b/c she has a brace on so she must be hurt and good for her for trying. If I run slow, if I stop to walk…it’s not embarrassing b/c the brace allowed me those moments of vulnerability.

I’m not content with this mentality anymore. Whatever I do, I am doing. I’m not a woman who exercises with a brace. I’m not going to hide behind it anymore. Sure, I may have some physical limitations, but what I can do, I’m going to do well damnit.

Besides, running naked felt awesome!

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Keeping Things in Perspective

Today was my last long run before my race next week and it didn’t go as planned. I knew my legs were tired from a 5 mile run on Thursday morning and 90 minutes of intense fencing later that evening, but i was hoping they could hold out for one last 8 miler. I had a feeling yesterday that my body needed some rest-i got on the scale and discovered i had lost over 2 lbs in just a few days and that was not good. I’m not quite at my pre-pregnancy weight yet, but i haven’t been dieting either so i betting my bottom dollar it’s from dehydration and a touch of exhaustion.

I got to my new favorite running spot at the Glenmore Resevoir and walked for a bit to warm up. Head feeling good, stomach is great (I’ve had some tummy issues recently)-so off i go! I’m always slow to warm up-sometimes it takes me up to 4 miles to get into a groove. Right away i knew this wasn’t going to be my day. I always feel a twinge in my right heel at the start of a run so i usually run for about a mile, then stretch out a bit-no problem. Shortly after that i could feel extreme fatigue in my legs. They had that tired tingle and i could feel every muscle i used fencing Thursday night starting to shout at me. I chugged along walking and running for about 3 miles before i decided this run was going to hurt me more than it was going to train me.

I could have been upset, very upset. But as i walked back to my truck i started thinking about the process of how i came to be at this point and i think i should cut myself some slack. When i began training for my last half, i was already in great shape. This time i was still carrying almost 20 lbs of left over baby weight when i started and my cardiovascular system was in poor shape from no intense exercise during my pregnancy and post-partum months. Last time i had an older son who was self-sufficient. This time i have an infant who decided that sleeping through the night is lame and naps aren’t really his bottle of milk. I’ve completed all my training runs, including the longest run of 10 miles, and i only had to cut 2 of them short. So i know i will finish this race-i probably won’t beat my time from my last race, but what does that matter in the grand scheme of things?? Not much my friends, not much.

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A Race Upon Me

In a week i will be running my second half marathon. The distance is same, but this race will be very different and i’m more nervous than i want to admit.

My first half was in October in 2009 and i spent the summer training and was very excited to run it because this was a new experience. Finding the time and motivation to train was very easy and i assumed this race would be the same. Boy, was i wrong. First of all, i am the mother of a new baby. I haven’t had a baby in 5 years and had completely forgotten how time and energy consuming they are. I love my little 10 month old, but he is not a good sleeper, in fact, he is a bad sleeper. Greg doesn’t really nap during the day, nor is he even close to sleeping through the night. I feel tired most of the time and i can feel the effects from it in some of my runs.

Nutrition is also something i paid more attention to for my last big race. There have been a few of my longer training runs i have had to cut short due to lack of energy and general stomach problems this time around. I want to eat healthy, i do, but we all know that when a person is exhausted and grouchy they don’t make the best decisions. I have slipped in the Mcdonald’s drive-thru or have just skipped meals a lot more than i care to disclose.

I have more challenges this time, but i have managed to get my training in and consider myself ready enough for this race. I would have liked to have worked on my speed more, would like to have dedicated more effort on the nutritional side of things, but it is what it is. As i write this, i have decided that it is never too late to make positive changes. I will dedicate this coming week to making better eating choices and try to stockpile some energy so i can give my body the best chance of performing well. The long-weekend beer will just have to wait 🙂

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